Over Anxious

The only way for me to describe the feeling that propels me to play on after my body tells me I should stop is to call it over anxious. That's what happened again tonight. By 7:30 D was ready to stop. My left quad was aching. I should have stopped. Instead I played on. So now both knees are sore and swollen. The Urge is to play one more fine so I Can show I have improved. It's a way of proving to everyone I'm good. If I can get over this inferiority complex then I know I can take my game forward. Like the way I played Rita tonight. I was completely without any feeling of proving myself. I just have to say to myself , 'I have nothing to prove.'

I HAVE NOTHING To PROVE!!