Hiatus

I was in the shower tonight and a stray thought appeared in my head.  It was one simple, 'what if I don't go to practice Monday?'  Then followed by another, 'I don't have to go to practice Monday.' All of a sudden a torrent of seemingly brilliant ideas came rushing, 'And what if I don't take a lesson Thursday?  What would I like to do instead?'

I realized just then how relieved I felt.  Like a weight has been lifted.  Generations of commitments fell away instantly.  I felt good!  Surely I met my goal of playing 4.0, albeit only 5% of the time.  Nonetheless it's mission accomplished!  So, I don't have to keep playing, taking lessons, beating myself up for not training harder.

That's the answer!  I simply don't have to play.