Squash health and progress update

I'm feeling good. I'm continuing to get on court to play and feeling stronger.  The result of testing my game against familiar players shows that I have to restore confidence and calm.  I haven't found that focus yet and I attribute that to not reaching a state of calm.  On court I repeated to myself over and over that I must focus on the ball.  It seems the more I repeated that the more I couldn't watch the ball and watch the other player.  I have to try something else to calm myself.  Focus will follow calm.