Again with the mental

It is difficult to understand what goes through my head and what my body is doing at that moment, but there is definitely a 'shut down' of all systems sort of thing going on. What events lead up to this moment and factor into this behavior I don't know for sure. Maybe I'm simply a quiter.

Like this morning I was putting in my 1 mile run, coming out of turn 1 after two laps I abruptly stopped. After debating with my self for maybe 200m, I convinced my self that I have to tough it out and finish the run and that it was not too late to finish the run. I restarted only to stop again. At that point I was negotiating with myself on the terms I would finish the run under. I compromised and said I would walk to the start of the next lap and complete a sprint of one full lap. Even after all of this, I still needed to force myself to finish coming into turn 1. And why I'm having this mental battle with myself, my pace drops off and picks up like a seesaw.

On the positive note, I didn't have to force myself to do the stadium before and after the run.